To the unknown

I sit here alone to watch the sunset
But for a company I long
For someone who is yet to come
To whom I will belong
But when the sun sinks, I wonder
Who could you be, for whom I wait?
Flowers may no longer inspire me
Nor may the stars above
Like in them lies no beauty
You who will reign over my thoughts
And the dreams of my nights
Would you trigger the ink flow in my pen?
Would you be my muse?
On whose sight I would smile,
Someday when my body betrays me
When I grow old and weak
Can I still hold your hand?

My love still exists

My love that existed yesterday

Exists even today

I long for your hair even today

My nights are still spent in your thoughts

My crazy condition exists even today 

I don't wan't to see any other

My dishonest eyes

Have a modicum of decency left even today

Love me once and then leave me if you wish

Even now you have the permission

To break my heart and leave

NOTE: A shairy from the movie Akaash Vani. A perfect message for the ones who can't let go and for the ones whom they can't let go of.

Endmost Note

Five years!

I am gonna meet my death

God help me

Prayed I

Just in first year

I used to say

Four short years ago

And here I am

A final year student

When asked

Fifth year

I answer with pride

Head held high

Patting myself on the back

You made it out alive

I tell myself

Lesser classes

Chilled schedule

Just a year

And goodbye law school

Life: A bar of soap

Whenever I am free, I am either with my computer, browsing all random things on the internet or  I am with my phone downloading songs and applications. In one of those times I came across an application on play store. Its called, 'Lettrs', an application that lets you post letters to both public and to private persons. There is also a feature that lets you make pen-pals, you can address letters to them and they can reply to your letters. I also have a few pen-pals. You have access to all the open letters and thats when I came across this piece. I thought you may love to read it to. So I am sharing it.

This little bar of soap

Perches on that precarious ledge in your bathtub.

That little soap often slips here and there, almost gleefully and

The harder you grab onto it,
The more it evades your grasp.

And you think up a million ways to sneak up on it,

To figure it out, to find the meaning of that little bar of soap.

And while you do all this,

That little bar of soap just sits there, twiddling its thumbs,

...Making bubbles.

Oh but that little soap will give

you are real good clean, once in a while

Deftly sweeping its tiny fingers away from itself,

Sweeping away all your dirt

But most of the time

That little bar of soap just sits there, twiddling its thumbs,

...Making bubbles.

Day in, day out, more of that little soap washes away.

More of that little soap disappears.

And the funny thing is

The littler it gets, the more important it suddenly becomes

"How could I have wasted all that soap?"

"How could I have let it sit there in that insipid water and never use it?"

But soap is soap, it will make bubbles quickly as it can and that's all there is to it.

Because it is

It is the bare feeling of being happy just by catching a glimpse of that smile, which makes your heart skip a beat even when you are juggling the beatings life has to offer.

It is the very voice that sounds to you like something so blissful and soothing, which even beethovens symphonies can't match.

It is the bare look in those eyes that makes your world go blank and come to a standstill because you get lost in the beauty those sparkling eyes behold.

It is the very emotion you feel so deep and so true that will stay till the time you breath last because that feeling gives you a reason to smile.

It is something not everybody will relate to but for those who do know the beauty of it!!!

If money can buy me a time machine

If money can buy me a time machine
I would not mind begging in the streets
I need to go, visit my past
Spend some quality time with my Ama
I can never have enough of her
Leaving her would break my heart
So I am going to bring her here
Only if money can buy me a time machine!

If money can buy me a time machine
I would not mind robbing even the poor
I got to go, visit my past
Have a few things to straighten
A few spoken words to be taken back
Some mistakes to be undone
And a lot of beautiful memories to be made
Only if money can buy me a time machine!

If money can buy me a time machine
I would not mind stealing from the rich
I have got to go, visit the future
To make sure nothing goes wrong
Learn about it and come back
So that I can be prepared
Protecting loved ones would be much easier
Only if money can buy me a time machine!

To my father

In a tiny hamlet far away
Where meandering path leads the way
And nature is at its best
At the alluring place which I call 'home'
Dwells my strength, my father
While collecting the memories together
Dearly, he clings upon them
A few happy-sad, bitter-sweet moments
The contents of his life
A life that had been selflessly dedicated
To the mouths that had to be fed
To the bodies that had to be clothed
Role of a father he excelled
Keeping the love alive even after she left
His love unparalleled
He is an exemplar of a true husband
Survivor of a tough life
Strong and sturdy he still stands
Role of a man he excelled
Chased by old age, his hair grey
Our lives, made his prey
The man who is my strength, my father
His sacrifice I never can repay
Good health I pray be his now and ever

p.s. I love you, Apa.

waste

Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock
The hands of the clock moved
Lost in thoughts, the lesson ended
Without answers, the job interview ended
Education and time wasted!

As I watch you slide by

It wasn't yesterday nor was it the day before
Did not realize, when it actually materialized
With the feeling of being washed ashore
After the rasp flood has had me agonized
I wanted to relax and go with the flow
As you and I walked all those miles together
I found myself losing myself a little more
Heart filled with the feel of a flying feather
A sparkling  smile on my face I always wore
It was the time when I witnessed love grow
Nothing around would distract me but you
Days grew brighter and more meaningful
With a slight peek at you I went skew
Away from the route I considered peaceful
Discovering myself letting my guards down
All those alluring days had me dreaming
Dreams that weren't meant to be at all
All along against me have I been scheming
Standing I watch my soul feebly crawl
Alas! I realized but too late to save myself
Wistfully as I sit here aware of you sliding by
As I am letting go off this special someone
Understanding that by this I should comply
I know it was not my game and it can't be won
I have bound my heart in chains to my body
While I let go of you I shout with a wheeze
But you can hear it no more as you are leaving
The brain can take in no more memories
My knees are going weak and I am shivering
When I see you flying off far away from me

The Doleful Loss

The tears shed in the abysmal lonely nights
My aching love story it still writes
Unsparing anguish of being abandoned
Knocks violently as I am still stunned
When the beautiful flashbacks iterate
It overwhelms me in an emotional strait
After you breezed into my life with glee
Such a heartwarming union it was for me
On that lovely day of the spring season
In a twinkle you had my unoccupied heart won
And  it was racing at the light's speed
The very next moment you were my need
For you I was just another picture
To be entangled in the webs and then stir
That I am left with just the memories
With or without which I can't be at ease
Is the bitter truth that I still can't battle
You don't even realize you were so brutal
Letting the glamorous dreams of mine crumble
You still walked away causing so much hassle
Leaving me flummoxed and stuck
To the reminiscence that I can't chuck
Because I possess not an agile heart
In which you struck a drat
It's hard for me to disregard the love for you
Neither have I the strength to remove this blue
The torment that I feel from this
Defines the pointless life that I live.

Loop of Life

Fear not the poor but the wealthy
Poverty may starve you to death sometime
But the poor wouldn't
wealth may keep you comfortable for lifetime
But the wealthy doesn't

As you walk through your life
Both poor and wealthy you shall stumble upon
You shall get treated lowly by the wealthy
Yet equally respected by the unfortunates
Cos wealth is accompanied by pride

Despise not the ugly but the good looks
Though uglies treated as gnat
They surely would not compare
Good looks much lovable to look at
Never can the ego behind those beautiful faces be measured

The admired good looks and the hated ugly
Shall be seen throughout in all forms
Good looks are food to sight
Yet poison to the mind
The evil inside keeps rising all along

Reflect upon the natures of the humans
Try fitting into everyone's lives
 You will find yourself betrayed
Betrayed by the good looks and the wealth
When you do grow old and poor

Things you don't know about me.

How many times does a butterfly try
Before it learns to fly?
The Garden is filled with flowers
But how many are mine?
How many sighs fill up a lifetime?
When I see you I can't breath
So many things you don't know about me.
When I flew and you fell
So close, I could hear you breath
I am sorry I didn't catch you
You don't know, why I left
I couldn't tell you, I just let you cry
Your tears shattered like rain on the ground
Breaking my heart into pieces
You don't know, why I kept away
Circling above in the sky
These are things you don't know about me
How many Blinks fill up a lifetime?
I find myself staring at you
The sky is filled with stars
But how many are mine?
Does it eventually rain and the lightening spark
When the sky is gloomy and dark?
So many things you don't know about me.

Layers around me

Circled, I am with many layers
Layers, they are of people
People with loving and caring hearts
Hearts protective of me

Like the tall sturdy walls they stand
Repelling every evil targeting me
Determined to keep me unharmed
Till eternity, if need be

In the middle stand I
I, who is lucky enough
Enough to have these people around
Around me for this life I have

With all these layers around me
I am sure I shall achieve
The untouched dreams of mine
In but a nick of time

Wonder I sometime, what would happen
Happen to me in their absence
Absence of these people would kill
Kill me and my identity

Only and only if I had the power
I would freeze this ticking clock
Be selfish and not let go
Of these layers around me ever.

When it is time to leave.

There she lay groaning in pain
The last moments are already here
Nothing can hold her back now
Time up and she needs to leave

Time has ticked by too soon
It seems like just yesterday
When she set her foot here
And now it is time for goodbye

Sorrowfully her loved ones cry
renowned medics are at their best
But the lord above calls her
She has no other choices left

Her wealth can’t help her now
No supernatural power can save her
Alas all she gets to take
Is nothing but the good deeds

Such is the reality of life
Like autumn leaves she will fall
To the soil where she belong
And will finally turn to dust

After her the winter shall come
Cold frost will cover the ground
Leaving no traces of her existence
Lost and forgotten she shall be